Accumulative stray thoughts 3/31/2016


I don’t know WHAT is up with me.

Since I have no books to really read, I’ve been reading things on Wikipedia. The topic I first started out was pretty grotesque and since then has heightened to this:

I JUST ate some very chewy beef and I’m going to be honest, its NOT sitting well! Its been a long time since I’ve read something that made me physically nauseous.

The follow-up entry was about ‘Vore’; I didn’t know what that was and quite frankly the idea is very unappealing.

I’ve become active on Deviant art again were I’m frequently in and out of the IRC chats feature on the site; they have a Vore cafe there…While I’m curious what kind of conversation goes on there – the name ‘Edibleshoes’ already sounds a bit fetish-like.


Meanwhile I only picked that name because of a old running joke; ‘You have so many shoes and yet the fridge is empty. What are you going to survive on, Shoe leather and mustard?’ To which then the person who I was chatting with, their puppy decided to become friendly with a pair of Jimmy Choo. It would have been even more funny if the dog’s name was Jimmy – I think it was Bernie.

As of 3/31 – I have made 403.75 dollars on ebay..BUT those lovely fees + paypal’s fees has reduced that to somewhere in the middle 300’s. I still have random things to sell too but figure they might be better sold at a yard sale.


Bear is doing calisthenics  at the moment, if Mabibble was home – he would be beating Bear up since the cat has placed his large self behind & inside the entertainment system. Looks comfy…AND I think he ate something back there.

I rather him hide out in a place I DONT want him than running on the pergo wood floor, its slippery for him and while running down the stairs his back legs went out to the side almost turning into a big tumble.

I bought a couple cans and pouches of wet food since I had coupons. We had stopped for a week and he wasn’t too demanding but I don’t think Science Diet is really nutritional or affordable. If I was going to feed him something overpriced I’d pick Blue Buffalo – I already have him on the dry food and his fur is so soft now!

I just dont know why he loves Friskies so much – its like the cat equivalent of carb junk food! The wet food also makes him throw up!

One time Bear had such a bad throwing up fit it started in the living room on the rug, he then vomited at the base of the stairs, ran up the stairs – Shit himself, threw up again, got scared because Mabibble hit him and then ran down stairs – vomited and pissed on the hallway rug.

This is why I no longer have a nice hallway rug.

This is also why I’m afraid to adopt another pet, Mabibble hits the cat or throws things! In turn I have taken to hitting him and throwing things.

The neighbor I don’t like (I don’t actually like any of them), they have this BIIIG dog. Maybe one day I’ll take a photo if he doesn’t try to jump the fence to bite me. I call him ‘Rat poison’ cause the fucker just wont shut up. I open my door to get the mail, he barks, I open the back door to water my plants, he barks- I try to mow my lawn, he runs back and forth barking….Its not like the houses are RIGHT next to each other. I found out his real name is ‘King’ but in my head he will forever be called ‘Rat poison’.

I have 12 tabs open on Wiki about murders, mental illness types & crimes…I really need something new to read!

I woke up angry this morning.

Its been nothing but windy and I had started seedlings inside, they were doing wonderful but Mabibble built this ‘green house’ rickety as fuck shit.

Well the wind has won again, ALL of my seedlings, the strawberry, various tomato, lavender (VERY HARD TO GROW), Dill, Parsley and Yellow Bell pepper are now GONE. I had JUST gotten 2 strawberry to seed, I was so upset this morning but after eating more junkfood I just feel sick and angry at myself now.

I really hate living where I do. The house has so many flaws and some room’s really are tiny – If I had moved out south my property tax would be minuscule compared to the 85## I pay now.

…Did I mention I hate the neighbors? They have so many friggin cars parked all over – Park infront of your house, not mine! You have all that space on the right hand side!

I have so much more to say but something tells me not to bother and just press the ‘Publish’ button.



Bokeh 1


Bokeh 1 by EdibleShoes

Intense winds.

A barking dog whom I call ‘Rat Poison’.

Dirtied pants & a Ear ache.


All just for a photograph.

Accumulative stray thoughts 3-11-16


Don’t eat the Chili from Wendy’s…EVER. Employee Admits To “Pooping” In Wendy’s Chili For Over 2 Years

I do not like having to wait till 2017 for new Doctor Who, nor do I like what BBC has done to its time slot/How the current doctor (Peter Capaldi) scripts are written – I feel only the last couple episodes of the last season highlighted how unique this doctor is compared to the others personality wise. >>Call out<< I feel like his scripts from other episodes were good but not of a singular entity’s personality because all the Doctors of each regen had different quirks; I felt some episodes were meant for David Tennet’s Doctor and others were unmentionable unless brought up in a conversation I just wouldn’t remember that episode.

Top 5 episodes that I remember but NOT the titles

1-The trial of the death dial/will where Peter Capaldi has to work out thru all his deaths how to get back to the Tardis (Best episode for this regen)

2- Dont blink – From the wall paper to Sparrow and her movie rental job, this was a really memorable episode (All the episodes with David Tennet & the pretty Freema Agyeman in the background)

3- Silence in the Library. These two are the only ones I remember by title and If I’m remembering that; it means I remember the whole episode.

4- “My gift to you is the air from my lungs” I remember this ep with Chris Ecclestons with glee because well, it introduced alien creatures and the FACE OF BOE as well as that creepy yet hilarious sheet of living skin as the ‘last human’…I think it was that episode!

5- Its hard now to break it down to just ONE episode because by now, I’ve started googling eps to figure out what I remember & if it was one plot or two rolled into one thanks to how I remember things. So arguing for this spot are the remembered images of ‘Bad wolf’, ‘Rivers in a astronaut suit shooting Matt Smith’, ‘The creepy Silencer aliens’, ‘Ood’s’ & the Nurse kitties from this hospital ep with David Tennet…


Its absurd that I liked Matt Smith but when I think of Doctor Who, I remember almost all of David Tennet’s episodes followed barely by the others. John Pertwee’s eps are slightly more memorable because of his coat!

I’ve gotten into drinking beer and thinking it OK. Not something I want to drink often yet yesterday I had a ‘Angry Orchard’ and that was good; actually it reminded me of how I make pork roast lately. Then before that was the hard ginger ale, rootbeet and today I drank two caramel malt’s which really dont have alcohol content.

I bought some coffee today for my Gma although I live in another state. They were having a big sale at Stop and Shop but this doesn’t apply to decaf so I was caught in self loathing moment when I read the receipt in the car. Unlike how I USE to be, I got my ass out of the car before Mabibble put it into drive and returned the can of coffee as well as getting 2 dollars back on another purchase because there’s a sales tag on it but it rang up .90 cents more than the sale tag.


New Jersey has skanks.

Not to say New York didn’t but these skanks don’t even realize the wrong doing they are committing. Skinny ass hoe don’t rest your ass on the counter because your heels allow this! And just cause your skinny does not mean I want to see your stretch marks on your belly! Apart from her poor choice in clothing and behavior in public, she seemed ‘friendly’ but that could have been the spiked pepsi she was drinking. (I saw her boyfriend pour vodka in to her pepsi bottle)

I need to get myself outside more. The weather was really nice today, as was the whole week; the only problem is really bugs and neighbors.

Yesterday I also had peach schnapps, yummy but way too sweet.

Last Friday? Last Friday Mabibble threw a good bye party for one of his co-workers at our *COUGHMYCOUGH* house. He invited more people than I wanted and it didn’t get out of hand but SOMEHOW we are having another one on the next coming Friday after St.Pattys…And guess what? The list of people in the past three days has grown with each day bring more people.

That party was on the 4th and I JUST FINISHED washing the dishes….Do NOT ask me about cleaning.

I think I have kidney problems, my morning water is much darker than when I lived in NY…Unless its the water here cause I’ve been drinking the same amount of water.

I some how beat my goal of selling 12 items this month and I celebrated by…Having that peach schnapps yesterday…I want to celebrate again!

The beginning of the week I told Mabibble ‘I might go to hell when I die’; the items I order online honestly miss quality control and I feel like I’m doing a bad thing by contacting customer service to get this fixed. I’ve had to do it so often within the past 6 months that I got a couple items (broken) for free.

On a the artist site that I frequent, one group/club is having a contest with the theme ‘Yellow’ – All I could think about was upending 2 bottles of mustard and makin a mess.

Spring is here…And so are my allergies.

I want to start priming the ground for planting but Mabibble is the only one who drives so I’m running on HIS scheduled and nothing is getting done.

From I think 2010 I had some Jamaican Sorrel saved and 2 weeks ago I had a thought  that there might be seeds on the bottom with the flower dust; I was right. I spent 20 mins angry because I had a whole bunch in the past & thought it was bugs.

I planted 6 of those seeds, I think it was 6 – and only 1 germinated but hey! I got something to seed and its larger than a inch now!

I bought strawberries just to see if I could grow strawberries from the seeds, I was considering blue berries because I like them better but they weren’t on sale.

Mabibble has gotten fatter. I know I’ve gained weight but he no longer feels comfortable wearing his clothing and has taken over 3 pairs of my sweat pants & one pair of shorts that I had since I was a teenager. I wore those shorts and kept them nice – a month with him and they are stained and ripped.

The construction people finally came Monday to do repairs to the house from the Flood that happened in January; they were …OK. One smelt like a sour ashtray; but all in all they painted and our house looks nicer. The garage though is not as warm as it should be; Mabibble needs to get his act together and insulate the garage’s walls properly.

Thursday Mabibble lost his wallet. I tried to sat cool and collected because I knew that this would happen (After loosing his cellphone 3+ times and needing to replace it). The wallet wasn’t found until the afternoon by who- ME ofcourse. I then proceeded to throw it down the stairs and have a shit fit (Not as heated as a normal fit) because we went to the doctors and he spent all morning on his phone calling to cancel cards while I paid for his pills and waited patiently.

Meanwhile that doctor did nothing for him, he needs a MRI and to go to a real doctor who specializes in nerve damage/car accident trauma.

Mabibble is currently playing Tom Clancy’s Division and I’m enjoying it. I do not play shooter games but the detail and its pretty open/free world. At the end of the day tho its still a shooting game and if he keeps putting the volume at 36+ I am going to break the remote in half and toss his TV turner and subwoofer out side and urinate on it.

I just made a promise to him that later tonight I am going to smack him while he is sleeping. I HATE loud noises and guns going off is on top of that list.

So far I have been keeping on track with brushing my teeth twice a day (Opposed to only at night), but even doing this after I eat or drink something sweet I feel the need to brush. Think I’m becoming a little obsessive.

Does green tea and peach schnapps mix well?

Earlier in the week someone bought 3 pieces of bismuth from me so I gave them a extra piece as a gift, its much bigger than the ones I was selling but at the end of the day I’m hoping that they’ll leave feedback that is positive.

Want bismuth?

I’ve been selling things on eBay but getting little feedback, I guess thats OK but I would like more positive feedback so when other buyers look at my profile they see I’m not some conartist.

I’m beginning to not like one of Mabibble’s friends much. I shall call him ‘WWFBD’ here, a more clinical name makes it harder for readers to get attached. ANYWAY, WWFBD is somewhat down on his luck – I feel bad talking about him negatively but this guy was pestering Mabibble into getting a gym membership only because WWFBD cannot drive, does not have a car and Mabibble drives him about sometimes to the doctor. The way he went about asking was pretty dickish – Mabibble had just came out of the doctors office in pain and WWFBD had asked for the 3rd time if it was OK to drive him somewhere.


I also found out Mabibble has been giving ‘V5BLSCK’ rides to work still when this guy does NOT repay for the lift. He has been originally giving rides for 2+ years without a dime for gas and going out of his way to drive V5BLSCK to work. I made Mabibble stop driving him with the help of a outside and unrelated stranger but he started up again behind my back.

Not only am I going to urinate on his home entertainment system; I’m going to get it all over the car. Just thinking about it gets me angry.


I’m done- If I think anymore about the people who take advantage of Mabibble that aren’t me I’m going to break his phone.

He got back in touch with one of his idiot child hood friends that has cause nothing but problems. It is my mission to make them meeting up not happen now – I dont want drama or to be bothered by this guy’s wife+kids.


Notes to self


Do not use Media mail for anything other than paper goods.

Everyone makes mistakes, when you screw up on a sale on eBay – Don’t ask the cat for help.



When you screw up & have e-mailed someone; don’t let impatients get the best of you and eat a whole bag of cookies. (How can 6 cookies = a donut + 1/2 donut…Its only fried sesame dough with sugar!)

Just because you’re unhappy with a item from a person does not mean you should try again from the same seller…

Feeding the birds is fun but they shit AND PEE. Don’t expect them to clean that up.

When planning a garden, remember that means outside time and that you’ll need gardening tools..A large spoon and fork cannot till land.

Paypal takes out a fee on top of eBay’s fee…Yard sale is looking more lucrative.

If seeds do not sprout…Don’t keep dumping rooting hormone on them – its only waste.

Make sure you have boxes on hand to ship things in. Making one big box into two normal boxes uses up too much tape.

April 8th – 10th is the rock show in NJ

The freezer has no more unseasoned chicken

Growling at strange cats works to keep them off the lawn but only if you move after them and cover it up with another scent…I am not bleaching my half dead lawn.

Like a bandit


Lately, more or less, last week I feel like I’m making out like a bandit.

You know that feeling when the holidays come about and you get all these gifts? And these are GREAT gifts not the kind you have to re-gift or put out only when that person comes over.

Friday we had a going away party for one of Mabibble’s co-workers. The party was kinda ‘easy’ yet we asked the guests to bring alcohol and some people just turned into a hot mess. Again I didn’t get to play party games or really socialize because I was trying to either feed or clean up but when everyone was gone we had so much booze and a nice amount of left overs. Henry’s hard soda, Gingerale is my go to drink now; someone had bought it over and I just now had a taste, its good stuff.

Then there is my selling on eBay. I feel amazing when something I listed sells, its like being rewarded for hording something; and I do have hordes BUT I’m kicking myself for selling my D5200 so cheaply (85 USD) – I was going to but 185 and didn’t double check. All the other things that have sold so far I’m pleased with but then there are the finalized fees which makes me wonder if I made a dollar or just 20 cents on some items. Summary – I really dont care in a way as long as I’m actively getting things out. I have to have a yard sale this year, HAVE TO. There are just some things that would sell better without shipping; like 10 flocked Joy Magnabibbbs hangers for 4 dollars once you add on the shipping it takes the buying experience down two notches.

Then there is my online shopping….

Yes the dreaded habit of online shopping because I am even more stranded without walkable shopping. So far I’ve bought a couple things and man…They were damaged cosmetically but working; I talked to some reps and got refunded/got to keep a dinged up lamp. The lamp is also false advertising of plastic not glass but meh..And my rock habit…I swapped from nail polish to rocks.

Figuring since I sold part of my collection, I’d replace it with a more adult sized bunch of specimens I bought BOXES of Amethysts & Citrine. So far I feel I’m a bit upset over what I’ve received, a lot were damaged and I had to even exchange words with a seller and get the website’s customer support to step in. This is why I’m selling some Amethysts with bismuth on them since they don’t look as nice as they should and I’m trying to recoup for the loss.


I am so drunk feeling after two sips of that hard soda: Its rare but today I was actually HAPPY.

Sparkling happy!

And then just 5 minutes ago I got in the mail my second order of Citrine (After finding the 3rd had been cancled) -these are…Meh. I think something was glued to two of the stones but I’m currently too drunk to think or operate properly…Those two small sips went right thru me.

I’m leaving neutral feedback – A-”

Bye Sparkling happy, hello again default settings.

Knew it wouldn’t last long,